Disclaimer: this is a post that will sound quite ridiculous, but is completely reflective of my mind these last few days.
Posting my style entry to the Man Repeller / Bloglovin H&M Awards on Instagram was one of the best decisions I have made. Ordinarily this isn’t something I would do – I hate serious pictures of myself, think I look disgusting half the time, or just not special slash cool enough to pull off such a potentially narcissistic post.
I might often exude an air of self-assurance and attitude that doesn’t give a shit about what others think of me ( as long as it fits into nice / cool / passionate category ), but I guarantee, approximately 94.5% of the time that is a facade for the deeper, more sinister, less positive thoughts. They are thoughts that I’ve come to deal with over the years though – sometimes they fly on by, high above my head with little notice, and other times they are unavoidable and hang around until I whinge and whine and they disappear again.
This entry is a step in the right direction. A booster for my sense of style, and the greater sense of ‘me’. Gradually I will figure out who I am and what the heck I’m doing, but in the mean time I’ll make the most of every opportunity and not take no for an answer.
Maybe there is hope for me yet in the bloggers-with-photographer-boyfriends world ( more on that here ) – don’t worry, just kidding I prefer my boyfriend as coffee- and cuddle-supplying, and far less focused on the fashion world than I. At least it would provide me a way to visually track my favourite outfits though – currently when I need an old favourite for a big new day or scary interview I find myself mentally scouring the small parts of my brain to source something successful and feel-good.
Obviously my image is only a simple Insta snap, nothing compared to a Scott Schuman or Phil Oh, but we don’t care. And I don’t really blend because I’m a real human being, but you do it your way, feat. some of my current legit faves – layering queens.